The new me is here to stay!

Ain't it funny how sometimes we get so depressed with life and what life has to offer that we forget to count the blessings we have? I know I do fall into that slump time and time again. Maybe some of you might think, Gosh this girl must be a super depressed girl. I really am not. I do write down how I feel and it may be rather dark and clouded but it is my way of releasing myself from it. Instead of letting myself drown into it, I pour and express it out in words on paper or cyberspace, just so I can feel that I have expressed, and someone has listened.

I am learning how to be more thankful with life itself. The Lord has given me the life and a destiny for me to realize, and I am going to take this destiny with pride and enlightenment. I am learning to look and search for a silver lining in everything that happens, in every event that might sadden, and in every laughter that brings hope. I am not perfect but I am glad that I am still so blessed.

I have put myself down and put myself in places where it was not very happy for a couple of months, and I have treated myself so unfairly and so negatively that I personally do not even feel sorry for myself. I am SO done with being that me. Frankly speaking, I do not like it. I woke up this morning as if I just had a revelation given to me. I felt so much lighter, so much happier, so much more exalted in a sense where the knots were untangled and troubles are just so far away. No longer burdened with self doubt. I am ready to fight the good fight and just live a fabulous life. Anyone who try to bring me down you can line up with the others waiting for me to give a f*ck.
I do not need new things, new gadgets, new hairstyle, new boyfriends or girlfriends, new friends, new anything at all. I have forgotten all about the power of self acceptance! Thanks to YOU Lord who has helped me find my way back into the LIGHT.

I do not give a damn what you might think but the REAL RACHEL is here to stay!!