Mixture of mad crush and heart delusion..

In the midst of battling with my own heart issues, I have sorta lost my sense of self. My heart and I really have issues with each other at times. I am a bit naive with my heart. I think most of us when we are in a situation where we focus on trying to ignore something, we are bogged down with it even more and left in a more confused and dilemma condition. 

I am just a little bit caught in the middle. Life is a maze and love is a riddle. I am just a little girl lost in everything about you for a moment.  You are stuck in my head. You startle me and knocks me off my feet when I first met you. I can't pretend though I try to hide. I LIKE YOU BOY I LIKE YOU! I don't know why. No matter what I do my heart is filled with you..  I don't know why and can't really figure it out. Felt as tho' my heart is going to pop!  Well, it is not everyday that I found a person quite perfect like you... You're basically almost all listed down in my ideal guy aspect list.
You're sweet, you're fine..  Now let me take a moment to state out what probably makes me fall stupid for you: ( these are just what I can think of for now)

• Those killer dimples just got me on the first sight. I just can't get my huge eyes off of you when I am with you. (I think your friends can see that my eyes really are glued to you)
• Your sweetness eventho' at times you ask me to shut the hell up without any reasons. It really bugs me at first but now I am used to it. I take it as a "silence breaker" when you ran out of something to say.
• Honestly, you are cute inside and outside eventho' I struggle with myself to deny it in front of you because I don't want you to know that I think you are cute and create an awkward situation.
• I realize that you are a mummy's boy. (it is in my aspect list of ideal guy)
• You don't smoke and I can see that you don't like smokers too. (It makes me fall for you even harder)
• You actually smells nice. (I sort of smell you >.<)
• Love how you speaks out what's in your mind without worrying about the consequences. 
• I love how you suddenly out of the blue complain about stuff that happened to you. (most of the time the weird funny stuff ^^)
• I love the fact that you are always funny. 
• I just like YOU I guess!
  
  So dear @#$%^%^&,
   Don't keep me hanging here cause this girl is falling stupid for you..The proper  thing to do is for me to act like a lady and wait for you to make the first move. But I don't think you're getting the point that it's you that I want.
  Why does it always feel like I am chasing love when nothing's there..??Uh ohh you got me... Show me that you too feel the same.. Boy I can't resist, cause all I want now is to be wanted by you.