Have you ever felt that mad rush inside of you when someone/something is harassing you but there is nothing you can do? The main reason why it is so is because you are terrified that it will be worse. Sometimes, I really wish my relationship with my parents are super close, as in where I can share anything with them and keep my integrity. But, there are some stuffs that I just don't know how am I suppose to share with them. I know I can't fix most of the stuff on my own, I always will need them....
The fire in me is sparking up and I am almost on the verge to the breaking point. I despise myself for it.. Every morning I just hope that everything was just a nightmare. It is just too terrible to be real. :(
I am tired, it's been too much sleepless night, I don't know how much longer I can survive just 2 to 3 hours of sleep with a frequent sudden waking up in between. I am amused that I can stand up everyday and facing everyone pretending everything is alright when inside I am crying out loud!!!!
That part of me really want to let them know my issues but I am trying my best to not bring up any trouble. I am way past those days where I am nothing but a troublemaker.
WAKE ME UP FROM THIS FUCKING NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No comments:
Post a Comment