Oh hey it's me again!
The old me is slowly finding it's way back into me...
Day by day as time pass by..
..I had forgotten to smile..I had forgotten to be cheerful
..I had forgotten to take things as it is and not look on the bad side
..I had forgotten to feel what I am suppose to feel..I had forgotten to listen to myself(It was too noisy to hear my own voice)

It was too difficult to be my own

Was difficult to be normal

Was difficult to be natural

Was difficult to being human

Was difficult being ME..

Because they told me i will be selfish to do so

So here I am again that one part in me is slowly fading away

Wanting nothing more to live

Barely have the reason to be smiling along with the life

Forget what it is like being myself.

MOST OF ALL I forget how to feel accepted by myself..

To chase or not to chase?

That has always been a big issue that I have in myself...
When I got confidence, the stage was gone.

When I feared losing, it was I who won.

When I needed people the most, they left me all alone.

When I learnt to dry my tears, I found a shoulder to cry on.

Life was never the way I wanted it to be.
But it was always better when I left chasing the best.
I learnt it from my experience that till the time you chase the things you love,
they run away from you.
And when you start running away, they start chasing you.

IN THE END It all depends on you, which side you were to select!

I am still in the midst of either two... 

It is killing me.. it hurts so bad..

Have you ever felt that mad rush inside of you when someone/something is harassing you but there is nothing you can do? The main reason why it is so is because you are terrified that it will be worse. Sometimes, I really wish my relationship with my parents are super close, as in where I can share anything with them and keep my integrity. But, there are some stuffs that I just don't know how am I suppose to share with them. I know I can't fix most of the stuff on my own, I always will need them....
The fire in me is sparking up and I am almost on the verge to the breaking point. I despise myself for it.. Every morning I just hope that everything was just a nightmare. It is just too terrible to be real. :(
I am tired, it's been too much sleepless night, I don't know how much longer I can survive just 2 to 3 hours of sleep with a frequent sudden waking up in between. I am amused that I can stand up everyday and facing everyone pretending everything is alright when inside I am crying out loud!!!!
That part of me really want to let them know my issues but I am trying my best to not bring up any trouble. I am way past those days where I am nothing but a troublemaker.
WAKE ME UP FROM THIS FUCKING NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in love! 

Dedication for one of the wonderful Daddy ever! ♥
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!


Once a year is not enough to say I love you dad
You've been there for me all my life,when I’ve been happy or I’ve been sad.
When God made you, he labeled you just for Rachel "MINE"..
He was so right,no other dad can measure up to you.
A hero always in my eyes,he gave his last to me.
You are the only man who have my heart from my first breath up till now.
Whoever my future man are he better be loving and caring for me the same way as you or should be doing better... To say I love you so much dad on this special day,comes from the heart of your only daughter whom you’ve cared for all her life.
We never say the things we should,as often as we might, but dad I really mean it when I say.
God gave the best DAD to ME.... 

such a HOTTIE HOTTIE HAWT!
I am melting.... Zac efron  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

well this is so me..

I bet i am not the only one who reads and thought I've understand then goes to the next page?
Argh!!! Wait I don't remember what did I just read?!!! @@ 

Those moments..

when my crush replied me back.

when my crush wasn't online.


when my crush totally ignores me and yet he is obviously on by the look of his recent activities!!

What most of us are like.... :)

one week before exam,

one hour before exam,

during exam,

After exam,

2 WEEKS FROM NOW I'LL BE JUMPING YEAH-ING LIKE TAE YANG!!!!! :))
Why you may ask? Well next week is my finals and 2 weeks from now I'll be leaving to Sarawak my home sweet home with my comfy bed, mummy's delicious home cook meal, little brother to harass, friendssss(but i think first week I'll ignore them because I just want to chillax).............The thought of these drives me nuts and I really just want to get over with the finals and shout "toodles KL"...