" Rachel, you’re no longer the person I used to know. "
" I know. "
" You’re so different now. "
" I know. "
" What happened to you? "
" Life. "
Have you ever felt so tangled up that it’s killing you inside and when you want to let it out you can’t find the words to begin explaining it to someone? So you decide not to tell anyone..
How is it possible that I feel so numb, sad, broken, lonely, and lost at such a young age? Why am I no longer care-free? Why is it that I have no idea what’s wrong with me? One minute I would be happy, thankful for what I have then the next I would just be a crying mess on my bedroom floor. How is it that before this I used to be a bubble of endless laughter and lately I find myself enjoying my own company more?
Why is that I no longer feel the need to go out and have fun? I know it’s a good thing but I just find it odd. Lately I would just rather stay in my room and let myself disappear into my thoughts. Why is it that I no longer understand myself? That the choices I make continuously surprise myself? Why is it that Im beginning to question myself? Why is it that I find myself slowly losing the drive to live? Am I losing myself?
My family... Aren't they suppose to be there for me? Why is it I always feel sad and broken all over again everytime I see my friends so happy spending times with their family. Spare me some thoughts please... You're losing your daughter... Do you not get that? She needs you!!!!!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT?????
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