I just don't belong anywhere in this world.
-here I am in the middle of the night in the dark blogging my heart out and expecting that some of the weight is lifted.
Do you ever wonder why I'm laughing with a group of friends one second but then two seconds later I have that distant look in my eyes starring into blank space, three seconds later I have no track of the conversation, four seconds later I wish I was anywhere else but there, five seconds later I am forcing the smile back on my face pretending I know what's going on.. when really I am too caught up with all the thoughts in my broken head.
Does anyone else ever feel this way? I feel so out of place most of time. I don't feel like I fit in everywhere I go. I am trying to break through this black solitude. It is slowly taking over my soul.. I don't know how much longer I can stand...