There I goes...

I pretend to look around while I am actually looking at you..  
Out of the blue, I went to play basketball with some friends. After fooling around for quite sometimes as usual I get bored and wants to head back to the college but then, a ray of sunshine is coming lucidly towards me. There you comes walking towards the basketball court all by yourself then without any doubts joining us playing. I can't help but get excite and hyped!!
Woots! God bless my friend for forcing me to go with him playing basketball that evening.
Basically, I spent most of the evening approximately 2 hours plus time watching you play.. I noticed that we wear the same type of shoes and that increase the width of my smile. 
But.... too bad I don't have the guts to go ask for your name.. I sure hope to see you play with us again soon in the near future sooooon!!!!

As i head back to college, I ran up to my room get my purse then head to the cafeteria wishing and hoping I'll see you there. But out came the disappointment you were not there I just saw you in the convenient shop from afar..

After my dinner I head back to my room again wash up then went to the study room as usual most of the nights I'll be spending my times there because that is the only way I could focus solely on my studies and not get distracted by any social networking when it comes to facebook! Urrrmmm... surprise surprise!  While i was wandering my eyes all around the study room there I saw you coming from the door and walking directly towards my sit!! *trust me I feel as tho' my heart is going to pop out when you get closer* Of all the sits available you chose the sit right in front of me ♥♥♥ So there you are sitting right in front of me with only just a thin wall like structure in between us. I tried to stay calm and continue my studies so i shove my headphones into my ears trying to ignore the anxiety overwhelming within me....

At some point when I was going through my notes I came across something that I can't really understand so I thought of asking you about the notes since you're our senior.. But then I do not have the guts to do so. So there I sit silently studying my notes with my mind filled with the thoughts about you. Every once in awhile I popped my head up stealing a glance of you on the other side. *the table is like an office table it is attached and there is this short thin board wall separator. so the distance between me and him is just about 10-20cm!! Gaaahhh!!!!*

Hehehehe *giggle*  basically that night I didn't study my notes much I study you more. Somethings I notice about you is that  your english ain't that bad. I eavesdrop the conversation you had with your friend.  Then, I found out you have that super small eyes not to say it in a bad way I think it is cute!!! I love it when you put on that study mind set look on.. Urggghhh!

Well that's about it.. when it comes to midnight we all left the study room and went our separate ways. I went back to my room headed straight to my lappy on skype and start sharing all that amazing stuff happening, to my bestie. I think she gets really annoyed by me because of not having the guts to at least be friends with him. She kept on saying if she is here in KL with me she sure would've done something. errmmm sorryyy... Will try next time...  Lord grant me the courage to not be terrified of socializing with my dear crush... 

the day i reunite with my mini. ♥♥♥

Well it's been awhile back.

i like  love my MINI! thanks my dearest friend Larry Tse for finding such an awesome stickies for me..... 

Fooling around the streets here in KL since we've got nothing better to do either than this.... I treasure every moment i spent with my bestie because it is rather hard for us to meet up since now we are all over the parts of the world studying for the sake of our future..... Urghhh! Missing them!

my lovely plushy alien toy... ♥♥♥♥♥

just be yourself. Ordinary.

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
This ain't a movie, no!
No fairy tale conclusion
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
So just take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe they'll stay, maybe they'll leave,
maybe they'll return
Maybe another fight

It gets better. wait and see.

There is this one dude in my college. Urmm...tall, cute. good looking,  gentleman  not gentleman yet he's alright & ridiculously smart. For every girls first impression that is the "perfect guy" and so day by day I fell for his external appearance that's for sure... But as weeks past, me and my stalking skill gain more & more information about this so called perfect.
First of all the attitude!!!
He so not gentleman enough!!
Secondly, the character!!!
Darn it he is so girly for crying out loud!!! ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!

Unholy confession #1

Hehehe here's a confession of myself. I am the kind of girl who make her bed super neatly right before i jump into it for sleep. @@
My friends who've seen me before getting into bed never dried out and ask me why do i make my bed right before sleep.
Well here is a simple answer for that, I just don't like going to bed where my bed sheet is all crumped up as tho' there are people wrestling it in earlier on?
Either than that. when the sheets is all crumped and yet i get into it I feel lost in my own bed..-.-ll

I think that's the explanation...Others are indescribable... :)

big girls don't cry.

I am pretty fine here. I ask for this and I am sure about it.

I chose to be here and there's no turning back. I don't think it's worth it I've come this far to prove that I am capable of being independent and not merely depending on you daddy.

I ♥ you daddy. Promise you I'll be alright & I am now able to know what's good & bad for me... Your little girl is getting bigger you have to trust her.

Sorry Daddy but I've had enough of those people who pretended to be my friends 'FAKERS" just because they are after something from me.. And I am also sick of those people saying that I am nothing if I am not your daughter. Well now I am trying to prove to those people I am not that rotten spoilt brat!

I know when I first came here it was really tough for me and it really took time for me to adapt to this life. But the determination within me kept me going. I am willing to stay in this crappy place and get what I came here for and prove to those people calling me spoilt they are wrong. 

that one friend of mine. ♥

Ermm.. How can I describe this. I like having her as friend but then at the same time I envy her so much.. She is so much better than me.

I know I am being selfish for being envious of her... I just can't help it I am always envious of someone around me that is better than me....

How can I not feel this way?

I try to ignore it but I can't seem to do so... :(


Guess this Rachel really does have a small heart...

Cereal remind me of this one friend..

Well there's a story behind it why cereal reminds me of him well one thing is because he loves milk.... Through his facebook *i am not stalking* I can see that he takes milk daily and with cereal too.... Aaaawwwwhhhh.... It's a good thing... Breakfast is the most important meal of the day...

Thanks to my big brother for this awesome picture shot. :) love you much.

No kEisha when I wake up i feel like getting back to sleep not feel like P.Diddy.

Every morning i struggle out of bed...
One thing I am pretty sure of is that my alarm clock is envious of the relationship i am having with my bed, therefore it bugs me to get out of bed every morning... ((>.<))ll

As usual I always point at someone and never take the blame... so I am blaming my friend who is abroad and not having the same time as me.. I tend to stay up super late till crack of dawn busy chatting with them of cause... I just don't want to leave them and end the conversation... If I could I would simply fly over to them and talk till I can't talk anymore... Urghh! I miss them so much i could friggin' hug every single one of them when I meet them and not let go not unless till for an hour..
**DUE TO THIS I ALWAYS STRUGGLE GETTING OUT OF BED AND KEEPING MY WIDE EYES OPEN IN CLASS** 
I am still wondering shall I submit this as an excuse for being sleepy in class to the lecturers??

Dedication to my Wonderful mummy.

Happy mother's Day!

Mom there are words in my heart I never say
The only words I let you hear are, I love you everyday
Deep down inside there are words that I hide
That go a little something like this.

You're the world's greatest mom
In today's lingo, you would be the bomb
I love you and I really do cherish you mom.

I know I may never show it
But honestly, you need to know it
I appreciate everything you've done
Which reflects on me, of everything I've become.
You've taught me wrong to right
And used to tuck me in every night.

You support me in every way
Even in sports when you don't have the slightest clue on what to say.
Then I look to the stands and I know everything is okay.
Making your parents proud is a child's huge success
I only wish for and hope for you to impress.
I love you mom and our family is a bless to have you!
Thank you mom... I love you.....