I blog to express not impress...
Often reality hits me in the face and I thought to myself.
"I don't fit here why pretend like I do?''
Right when I decided to take my own path and explore a different kind of crowd that is a university of my own choice starting from scratch without having to seek my “bigman’s” help to get what I want.
FYI my bigman is my Daddy.. He has been reminding me constantly everyday to get along with people and to take good care of myself telling me that the people I am dealing with are different, and they don’t know me.
Telling me to tolerate with people? Really?
Well why don’t you teach me that when I was younger dad?
It is beyond my control now to tolerate with people… And yes these people are different they care little and they get what they want.. You get offended or hurt is none of their business.
Yes before these I have always been around rich brats. Uhhhhhh I thought they are the stuck up ones for being snobby but these opposite society are worst.
They will eat you up and skin you alive.
They are arrogant even when they don’t have the looks nor the money.
Oh God I was so wrong to think these society would accept me.
I’m pretty much deadmeat..
But who cares I’ve come this far I’ll just go for it… What’s life without challenges??
JUST HOLD ON THERE RACHEL YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT!
Deep into reality
So, I was assign to go to Tawau, Sabah and no I am not from Sabah I am Sarawakian…
Yeahhhh… It was bittersweet at first. Part of me cannot wait to go there and have fun gaining new experience from the placement and also to visit a new place.. Little did I know that it was way way way way way below my expectations…
I arrived here in Tawau around 10pm.. My cousin pick me up from the airport then she asked me whether I want to stay over at her place first since my placement won’t be starting not until the following week.
Well, you can slap me because I told her no. I said I wanted to go to my own place which we rented and by then Edwin as well as Tze Hua was there. To be honest I think I was so curious to see the house which the 2 lunatics said was “good”
A huge disappoinment!! The house was nothing like what they said over the phone!!!!
Yahhhh I hated them for putting false view of the house to me.
Nothing much left to do it was already late so I decided to stay over a night and flee to my cousin’s place the next day.
I am so ever grateful that I have my cousin here in Tawau. I love bein at her place along with 2 cute nieces rather naughty and wild but what the heck kids will be kids…hmmm well I was pretty mean for ditching the 2 while I am enjoying my cousin’s place.
Well, actually I wouldn’t call it ditching because daddy was not really alright with the thought of me staying at the house with 2 guys for a week.
Recently, I fought with a best friend…
Yeah I just know her for a year or so.. Was a mistake to trust her.
She was always in trouble and I was always the one helping her out with lies which she made me tell her parents to cover up for her.. I hate the idea of having to lie to her parents. But to save her butt I have no choice.
Last month, I just couldn’t take it anymore it was too much and she treated me nothing like her best friend.. She skipped class before this she would tell me but not now. Oh yeahh the lecturers knew I was her best pal do they come after me about her. I have zero clue where she was or what she was up to..
Day by day, she had been missing a week class I asked her what happen she never replied. So one day, I decide to just leave it all behind and not care anymore.
YES I DO NOT CARE ABOUT HER ANYMORE.
Doesn’t concern me if she was hurt or anything I just pretend she is invisible and to never know her.
Harsh??
Well, I used to care but she abused my friendship…
She deserves that.
I was hurt too….
